Sometimes, you don’t even know what you need. You just know that you need something. Today, was one of those days. I was processing something hard and had cried off and on much of the day.

But, what if you are mad? Do you not have the right to express that openly or to have that emotion? Does that other person not think that the two of you are able to work through whatever emotions arise?

It is a dance that we do beautifully. There are no steps to learn or remember, the dance must be felt and the shifts in energy must come from intuition and I have never had a partner dance more beautifully with me.

“What if it wasn’t bad or good?” I asked. I waited to see how he would respond and when I could tell that he was willing to hear me out I continued.

Nature told him to protect me because he loves me. Nature told him to fight for me. Years ago, he would have literally been fighting to protect me but in this day and age he is certainly not going to be in a physical fight for me yet his body and soul have a memory of that energy

“Mum, can I stay home from school today” he asked.

I was busy putting things into the boys backpacks and wasn’t making eye contact. “Why, what is going on, baby?” I asked back.

I had found someone who was just as excited to be alive only I hadn’t gone searching for him. I had held my energy and allowed him to come into my reality and then recognized him when he arrived.

Everything in my heart, mind, body and soul were tired. Everything. Part of me wanted to cry and part of me was too tired to cry.

We are not teaching our children to listen to their bodies, we are actually teaching them to NOT listen to their bodies. We are telling children “push through whatever your body is telling you and don’t listen to it, be productive because the only thing that matters is production.”

I have a caseload of clients who, as adults, are just now learning to listen to their bodies because of this exact thought pattern.

There has been resistance all along. If I was being completely honest the resistance around this topic had rolled from one situation to another. It was odd, I hadn’t given this resistance a voice. In fact, I had tried to deny the resistance. Why, I wondered to myself.