The owner of that booth pointed to my son, “Is this boy yours?” he asked.

My fiance nodded, “Yes” he said.

He takes his camera almost everywhere, you never know when nature is going to display something really impressive. This day was no different.

We were walking along the ocean enjoying the blissful summer day when I looked up and saw a girl sitting on the edge of the water holding her cast out of the water. For a moment, I felt bad for her and then I paused and really reflected.

I got to my hands and knees and started rocking back and forth and side to side. I knew this body movement well and knew that I was grounding myself. I had done this countless times. Today was a little different.

My body kept begging to be on my hands and knees and I learned long ago that when my body is begging for something that I should trust it. I rocked onto my hands and knees staring at the floor and taking deep breaths. I knew without even thinking about it that I was trying to ground myself.

I was spending a week in CA for a training. I had looked forward to the training for months and months, knowing that the workshop and training would push me outside of my comfort zone and teach me a lot about myself. I underestimated what I would learn in the training. I underestimated what I would learn about myself and how I move through the world in the training.

“Mom, can we get these drinks?” he asked while holding up the bottles of bright green and blue fluid.

“What even is that?” I asked while wondering how something that color would taste good.

Relationship after relationship I searched for the love of my life only to feel frustrated and let down. No matter how amazing the person was, something seemed to always be wrong. I made lists of the qualities of a perfect partner. I spent time and energy manifesting to bring this person into my reality.

We were gifted feral kittens who didn’t want to be touched or seen. When we welcomed them into our family, we knew that it would be a process to build a relationship with them.

I was sitting in meditation after the facilitator of the workshop stopped instructing, and I was allowing the lessons to land as deeply as they could in me when I got the strong urge to move my body. I suppressed the urge at first because everyone was being silent and was in meditation, doing their own work, but the message got louder and louder and louder.