The divine feminine had been calling to me. I heard her in the wind when I was running. I heard her in the music that I danced to in my kitchen. I heard her in the sound of the shower. I heard her drifting off to sleep. I heard her and I was trying to listen.
As I started out for a run I welcomed her into my body, into my soul, into my run. The night before I had done a ceremony around welcoming her back into my world. I used to have a close relationship with her energy but I had lost it through trauma. I had done the shadow work to heal the wounds from the trauma and felt ready to work with her energy again. As I started out for my run, I felt different. There was no tightness. I didn’t need to relax into my run. My body didn’t feel rigid. Rather, I felt relaxed and immediately reached the flow of the run before getting to my mailbox. My sacral chakra flowed freely, I hadn’t realized how tight and limited I had felt. My body felt fluid and I could see the infinity sign in my minds eye as I ran. The infinity sign felt like it flowed freely through my hips with each step on my run. I have returned from a run and felt sexy and strong before, but I had never felt sexy while I was running, this was a new feeling and sensation for me. I embraced it, I went with it. The further I ran, the stronger the sensation got and if I am being honest, the more that I enjoyed it.
“I have missed this. I have missed this side of me.” I said to the divine feminine.
“Welcome home” she said back.
In that moment, I realized that it wasn’t me welcoming her energy back into me. She had always been there and I had strayed from her and as such strayed from myself. She has always been present and steady.
Her energy is warm, juicy, sexual, sensual, flowy, and open. More than that, her energy is strong, powerful, confident and worthy.
“Welcome home love, indeed”.
