“You can trust me” she said. “I have your back”.
After a pause, I said “ok, but….” and continued to voice my concern.
Again, she said “You can trust me”.
We both knew that I couldn’t. She had proven it time and time again. Her fake sweetness hid nothing, despite the fact that she thought it did. I smiled and agreed with every bell and whistle going off in my body that this wasn’t safe. I knew deep in my soul that she didn’t have my back and I couldn’t trust her. At this point in my life, I do not always need to voice directly to someone that I know they are lying to me, the conversation is often irrelevant. Sometimes, I simply shift the way I interact with them. I appreciate that she felt like she was offering support, she liked that role.
Time….. time is an amazing tool. It reveals many things. In this case, it revealed that I couldn’t trust her and that she didn’t have my back, but this didn’t surprise me. I smiled when it all played out and recognized solidly that the universe was giving me a nudge, rather a shove, and that it was a growth opportunity for me. I never reacted, not a flinch, not a word, but if you think I didn’t see it for what it was, then you would be wrong.
Now, the universe has my back and I can trust it. The universe has proven it over and over. I trust the universe implicitly even if I don’t understand the experience at the moment that it is happening, I know that it is for my highest good.
