I became interested in creating a stone circle almost as soon as I met Ivan. It is no secret that I have always been drawn to the magical and mystical side of life. Meeting him fell into both of those categories. I met him, in spirit form, on a guided journey that his wife was running. It was my bardic year in the Druid program that I was embarking on.
I knew that I was going to make a Stone Circle at some point in my life and I should have assumed it would be part of my Druid year, but honestly it didn’t hit me until he told me that he wanted to make one with me.
He is an impressive spirit to say the least. He is one who I work with incredibly closely. I can’t imagine my spiritual awakening without him. I had allowed him to write through me. I was excited to allow him to create a stone circle through me. I was excited up until the point where I realized I knew nothing about stone circles and didn’t want to create something that didn’t honor his wealth of knowledge. Mediumship is an interesting thing in the fact that when I am relaxed the clarity of the messages can be incredible, however if I am feeling unsettled the clarity can be less than clear. The moment I became unsettled was the moment that I froze in the middle of the Stone Circle I was wanting to create.
Above, is the background to this blog post. Fast forward to working with Dan from Turtle Drums. He was making me a custom drum and I was, over the moon, excited for it. We had originally agreed that he would ship it to me and then through some beautiful nudges from the universe we decided to meet in person. I let him know that I wanted to go to the earth clock in Burlington Vermont, as I needed to sit in that energy for a bit. He may not have realized at the time, but he was about to be part of my story on my Stone Circle. He offered to meet me there and said that he may be able to get David to meet me there as well. David had worked closely with Ivan creating the earth clock. I was incredibly excited about the day and it wasn’t until later that I realized we were meeting in the energy of the new moon, I should have recognized it when spirit gave me the nudge to change days. New moon energy is phenomenal for new starts, new beginnings and new insight.
The drum was everything I wanted and more. I couldn’t wait to get home and connect with it under the new moon that night.
Both Dan and David had worked with Ivan creating stone circles. I expected that I was meeting them there and would gain technical knowledge. I had purchased a book that outlined a lot of technical background to stone circles. While the content was great, I was missing something. I didn’t realize that what I was missing would never have been found in a book. As we talked through the details of how the earth clock was born, Ivan’s energy was intense but he was silent. I was struggling with the alignment of the stones. I was caught in my head, cycling over and over what I thought I should be aligning the stones to. I would need to explain the placement and alignment of the stones to anyone who came to the stone circle. What if I didn’t get the placement correct, not what Ivan wanted the stones aligned to. I questioned myself relentlessly over this.
As David told stories from the birthing process at the Stone Circle, I felt a calm come over my bod. , I knew it was Ivan. In one of the stories about the birthing process, David talked about a single stone in the circle and how they had aligned it. The details of it are not important, except for the fact that he wrote me stone cold permission to release any fear that I was holding onto around alignment. In that moment, I heard Ivan as clearly as I did the day that I met him. I realized immediately why the universe had put me in contact with David and Dan on that day. The permission I needed, to release fear, didn’t live in a book, it lived inside of me. David and Dan gave me the permission that I needed to release the fear that was holding me back. With almost everything in life, when we release something that does not serve us we gain room for new energy that does. Where fear once sat, I found it replaced by confidence.
Leading into the day, I had felt massive gratitude to both Dan and David for freely giving me their time and knowledge, but it wasn’t until after our meeting was done that I understood the magnitude of the gift today gave me. They gave me permission to release the fear that was holding me back.
If you find yourself in need of an intense energetic hug, I recommend that you find moments of silence at the Burlington earth clock and I am confident that you will get the hug that you need.
