I think that there is something poetically tragic about the fact that you won’t get to experience this version of me. That you won’t get to be loved by this version of me. That you won’t get to experience all of the benefits of the growth that came out of our relationship. But, like every love story or poem there are always tragic parts and so this is one of ours. Someone else will get to experience this expression of me and get to receive my love. It seems unfair and also there is something beautiful about it.

I won’t get to experience the empowerment and alignment that you have experienced as a result of our recent shift. I trust and know that you will go on and find the exact partner who is meant to love you to the depths and in the ways that you want to be loved. It just won’t be me. And, someone will get to love me, really love me, because I understand that I was holding walls up and I have let them down.

I wish I had gotten the chance to tell you that and show you that, I tried, I really did but you didn’t hear or see me or it. But, my family and friends have and my clients have and I have. So, someone will get to love me hard and I will receive it but it won’t be you which still makes me sad.

I think that there is something poetically beautiful about the fact that I won’t get to watch or experience you thriving in life but that I get to trust and know that you are thriving. Just as, you won’t get to watch and experience me thriving but you get to trust and know that it is happening for me too.