I have been taking a course over the past couple of weeks, and the facilitator provided an opportunity for the participants to reflect about specific topics. I wanted to share my response to her question about what I had noticed shifting in myself as a result of being in the course.

The biggest difference that I have noticed within myself as a result of sitting in this energy is that I have more access to all of myself, and I am making the conscious choice to be present with all of it.

What I mean when I say that I have more access to myself is that I have more access to the truth inside of my body and soul of who I am, and the depths of what I am meant to do in this life. I can feel it in my body in a way that I haven’t before. I don’t find myself leaning away or jumping to my mind to “figure out” how that will happen, but simply sitting in the truth of it and knowing that all I need to do is allow and embody the next expression of me. I have been feeling the truth of this in my body on a more consistent basis, and it has begun to feel comfortable, like putting on a comfortable, well-worn sweatshirt that makes me feel like I am home.

I also have more access to the subconscious limitations and blocks that I have been reinforcing that keep me from stepping into the next expression of me. It would be easy to say that I am sitting in more fear, but that isn’t it, I have more access to the fear and subconscious blocks, and I know that that is all that they are, so I do not allow them to spiral. I simply sit with them and love those parts of me while challenging those fear-based stories that I have been holding in my mind and in my nervous system. I feel those stories in my body and allow them to release, and for the new truths about who I am becoming to take their place, and I am being very consciously present with this whole experience.